So... whan i was a kid i had insomnia and had a lot of nightmares as many kids do, as i grow older all of this stoped and i didn't really had more nightmares, maybe just some bad dreams or one of those dreams you are naked in school or something like that.. but recently I've had a lot of nightmares, the ones that you wake up shaking and the cold sweat dripping from your face, and for the first time in my whole life i had sleep paralysis...and the thing i saw was slenderman. Right beside my bed, i wanted to move, but i couldn't...my arms and my legs...everything was too heavy, and he was there, watching me, taller than my door, right beside my bed. When i woke up i was shaking violently, it was a hot night, and i was sweating, cold sweat. From then on things got worse and worse, almost every night i had a nightmare, and i felt like something was watching me everytime i went to bed, when i go out i keep looking over my sholder and searching for him everywhere, sometimes i see something black and white with the corner of my eye and sometimes i even feel like someones right behind me but when i turn around there's nothing. For some time i didn't had nightmares but then...some day ago i had another nightmare. I don't know if it counts as sleep paralysis but i was in bed, facing my glass door which was coverd with the curtains and i felt something was watching me, not someone, something, and i remember thinking to myself "it's him, it's slenderman" then a voice in my head, that wasn't mine, said to close my eyes, "don't look at it or it takes you" she shaid, i shut my eye tightly and i heard static, oh god the static, it was so loud, so damm loud i thought i would blow my ears, then the scenario changed. I was in my school, surrounded by kid younger than me they all open they black eyes with red irises and said in union "close your eyes". This was a few days ago...i don't know what to think, is the slenderman chasing me? Can someone please help me? I'm scared, I'm paranoid, i can't sleep.
Have you considered visting a psychologist? I had a stressful time when I first got involved with the mythos and my anxiety made me suspect I had Slender Sickness and was on Slendys list... But that was just a mix between vivid imagination and angsty teenage anxiety. I don't think Slenderman is watching you, but you should talk to someone about your fear, someone in real life, that might already be all the help you need.